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‘How essential?’ she said.
‘I do think,’ he said, ‘that the world is only held together by the mystic conjunction, the ultimate unison between people—a bond. And the immediate bond is between man and woman.’
‘But it’s such old hat,’ said Ursula. ‘Why should love be a bond? No, I’m not having any.’
‘If you are walking westward,’ he said, ‘you forfeit the northern and eastward and southern direction. If you admit a unison, you forfeit all the possibilities of chaos.’
‘But love is freedom,’ she declared.
‘Don’t cant to me,’ he replied. ‘Love is a direction which excludes all other directions. It’s a freedom TOGETHER, if you like.’
‘No,’ she said, ‘love includes everything.’
‘Sentimental cant,’ he replied. ‘You want the state of chaos, that’s all. It is ultimate nihilism, this freedom–in–love business, this freedom which is love and love which is freedom. As a matter of fact, if you enter into a pure unison, it is irrevocable, and it is never pure till it is irrevocable. And when it is irrevocable, it is one way, like the path of a star.’
‘Ha!’ she cried bitterly. ‘It is the old dead morality.’
‘No,’ he said, ‘it is the law of creation. One is committed. One must commit oneself to a conjunction with the other—for ever. But it is not selfless—it is a maintaining of the self in mystic balance and integrity—like a star balanced with another star.’
‘I don’t trust you when you drag in the stars,’ she said. ‘If you were quite true, it wouldn’t be necessary to be so far–fetched.’
‘Don’t trust me then,’ he said, angry. ‘It is enough that I trust myself.’
‘And that is where you make another mistake,’ she replied. ‘You DON’T trust yourself. You don’t fully believe yourself what you are saying. You don’t really want this conjunction, otherwise you wouldn’t talk so much about it, you’d get it.’
He was suspended for a moment, arrested.
‘How?’ he said.
‘By just loving,’ she retorted in defiance.
He was still a moment, in anger. Then he said:
‘I tell you, I don’t believe in love like that. I tell you, you want love to administer to your egoism, to subserve you. Love is a process of subservience with you—and with everybody. I hate it.’
‘No,’ she cried, pressing back her head like a cobra, her eyes flashing. ‘It is a process of pride—I want to be proud—’
‘Proud and subservient, proud and subservient, I know you,’ he retorted dryly. ‘Proud and subservient, then subservient to the proud—I know you and your love. It is a tick–tack, tick–tack, a dance of opposites.’