‘But it is because you love me, that you want me?’ she persisted.

‘No it isn’t. It is because I believe in you—if I DO believe in you.’

‘Aren’t you sure?’ she laughed, suddenly hurt.

He was looking at her steadfastly, scarcely heeding what she said.

‘Yes, I must believe in you, or else I shouldn’t be here saying this,’ he replied. ‘But that is all the proof I have. I don’t feel any very strong belief at this particular moment.’

She disliked him for this sudden relapse into weariness and faithlessness.

‘But don’t you think me good–looking?’ she persisted, in a mocking voice.

He looked at her, to see if he felt that she was good–looking.

‘I don’t FEEL that you’re good–looking,’ he said.

‘Not even attractive?’ she mocked, bitingly.

He knitted his brows in sudden exasperation.

‘Don’t you see that it’s not a question of visual appreciation in the least,’ he cried. ‘I don’t WANT to see you. I’ve seen plenty of women, I’m sick and weary of seeing them. I want a woman I don’t see.’

‘I’m sorry I can’t oblige you by being invisible,’ she laughed.

‘Yes,’ he said, ‘you are invisible to me, if you don’t force me to be visually aware of you. But I don’t want to see you or hear you.’

‘What did you ask me to tea for, then?’ she mocked.

But he would take no notice of her. He was talking to himself.

‘I want to find you, where you don’t know your own existence, the you that your common self denies utterly. But I don’t want your good looks, and I don’t want your womanly feelings, and I don’t want your thoughts nor opinions nor your ideas—they are all bagatelles to me.’

‘You are very conceited, Monsieur,’ she mocked. ‘How do you know what my womanly feelings are, or my thoughts or my ideas? You don’t even know what I think of you now.’

‘Nor do I care in the slightest.’

‘I think you are very silly. I think you want to tell me you love me, and you go all this way round to do it.’

‘All right,’ he said, looking up with sudden exasperation. ‘Now go away then, and leave me alone. I don’t want any more of your meretricious persiflage.’

‘Is it really persiflage?’ she mocked, her face really relaxing into laughter. She interpreted it, that he had made a deep confession of love to her. But he was so absurd in his words, also.

They were silent for many minutes, she was pleased and elated like a child. His concentration broke, he began to look at her simply and naturally.

‘What I want is a strange conjunction with you—’ he said quietly; ‘not meeting and mingling—you are quite right—but an equilibrium, a pure balance of two single beings—as the stars balance each other.’