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The Lady Chatterley's Lover
by: D H Lawrence

‘Is there a pain? Do try and tell me where it hurts you. Do tell me!’

No answer!

‘Oh dear, oh dear! Then I’ll telephone to Sheffield for Dr Carrington, and Dr Lecky may as well run round straight away.’

She was moving to the door, when he said in a hollow tone:

‘No!’

She stopped and gazed at him. His face was yellow, blank, and like the face of an idiot.

‘Do you mean you’d rather I didn’t fetch the doctor?’

‘Yes! I don’t want him,’ came the sepulchral voice.

‘Oh, but Sir Clifford, you’re ill, and I daren’t take the responsibility. I MUST send for the doctor, or I shall be blamed.’

A pause: then the hollow voice said:

‘I’m not ill. My wife isn’t coming back.’—It was as if an image spoke.

‘Not coming back? you mean her ladyship?’ Mrs Bolton moved a little nearer to the bed. ‘Oh, don’t you believe it. You can trust her ladyship to come back.’

The image in the bed did not change, but it pushed a letter over the counterpane.

‘Read it!’ said the sepulchral voice.

‘Why, if it’s a letter from her ladyship, I’m sure her ladyship wouldn’t want me to read her letter to you, Sir Clifford. You can tell me what she says, if you wish.’

‘Read it!’ repeated the voice.

‘Why, if I must, I do it to obey you, Sir Clifford,’ she said. And she read the letter.

‘Well, I AM surprised at her ladyship,’ she said. ‘She promised so faithfully she’d come back!’

The face in the bed seemed to deepen its expression of wild, but motionless distraction. Mrs Bolton looked at it and was worried. She knew what she was up against: male hysteria. She had not nursed soldiers without learning something about that very unpleasant disease.

She was a little impatient of Sir Clifford. Any man in his senses must have KNOWN his wife was in love with somebody else, and was going to leave him. Even, she was sure, Sir Clifford was inwardly absolutely aware of it, only he wouldn’t admit it to himself. If he would have admitted it, and prepared himself for it: or if he would have admitted it, and actively struggled with his wife against it: that would have been acting like a man. But no! he knew it, and all the time tried to kid himself it wasn’t so. He felt the devil twisting his tail, and pretended it was the angels smiling on him. This state of falsity had now brought on that crisis of falsity and dislocation, hysteria, which is a form of insanity. ‘It comes’, she thought to herself, hating him a little, ‘because he always thinks of himself. He’s so wrapped up in his own immortal self, that when he does get a shock he’s like a mummy tangled in its own bandages. Look at him!’

But hysteria is dangerous: and she was a nurse, it was her duty to pull him out. Any attempt to rouse his manhood and his pride would only make him worse: for his manhood was dead, temporarily if not finally. He would only squirm softer and softer, like a worm, and become more dislocated.